the nights...

So, I've always been the kind of mom that cannot sleep with kids in the bed. The only time one of my kids has ever slept in our bed is a few times when it was storming and Mason was scared of the thunder. Even then, I would lay there awake until the storm passed, even if it took hours, until finally I would tell Scott to take him back to his bed so that I could go to sleep. I just don't fall asleep with kids around me.

Until now...

The first couple of nights I tried to put Cooper in her cradle, but about every 20 minutes she would wake up. Eventually, she ended up sleeping right next to me, and after a two hour stretch of sleep went by, I realized how much more rested I felt. So the next night, she was right there next to me in bed again, and soon she was giving me 4 hour stretches here and there. THAT is heaven after sleepless pregnant nights and sleepless newborn nights.

I told myself, as well as people that would ask about her sleeping habits, that I was going to give her a couple weeks to get into the habit of sleeping at night and then I could transition her to her cradle. Well, it has been two weeks. And the thought of not sleeping next to her makes me a little sad. And for me, that is weird! I keep saying, I'll give her another night in bed with me. But really, it's not for her, it's for me! Okay I admitted it. I said it out loud, or at least wrote it down. Now I can't deny it. I like, no I love sleeping with Cooper.